fiuh....
this blog has been abandoned for a year..
there are several reasons to back up hehe
1. the Internet at home is sucks
2. I don't go online for everyday (usually on weekend IF I feel like I want to)
3. I forgot the passwords....hix hix

there you go...hopefully, I can access blogspot from school lab...hehe...btw, something great happened...they change the working hours from 7:30-5:00 to 7:00-4:00 it affects so much to my body clock, since I used to wake up at 7:00 to go to work, well I won't need rush hour to go to work as I live nearby then now, I have to wake up at 6:00 since the school will cut the allowance even for 1 minute late...hiks...

and well, lots things has happened during a year,
1. my bro n sis gonna have baby in next of 3 months
2. my dad is currently having the recurrent of the damn cancer which I supposed the chemotherapy, medicines, others fruits vegies antioxidants and God healing hands already killed them for second times
3. another life as single...haha....it;s not new thing eh?
4. i've changed my silly 6600 to E65..
5. no more K1D...as they all graduate to K2's....
6. K1C....

and the lists will go on and on....
well... hopefully I would remember the passwords always....

I'm in Mellow mood
really mellow....
somehow I fell with this guy, but I'm confuse still...
well, there're lots voices telling this and that to me

the best thing i could do now is praying to the mighty Father...
ask for the best way I could get..
*sigh*
I felt this kind of feeling before, and made me lose 4 kg...hehehe
and yes, this time too I couldn't eat proper meal...
I only munch some of the bits and throw the rest, its err...wasting though
but hey, I just can't help it....
it will do some good to me tho..since I've been gaining another 5 kg after the last heart breaking.. then if I could do the same like last time, isn't it good for me
hehe

anyway, everyone here in school are having good laugh, cuz on one meeting, my coordinator was upset with everyone, and having a bad mood, and was quite angry...while every body was paying attention, with stressed looks...I was sitting there SMILING hehehehehehe....I don't know, some of time I will smile...some of time I will just stunned there...and keep quiet... and some other time I would cry my heart out....GILA ...yes that would be the best word to describe...GILA

some people told me He is good guy...some says he is not..well that people opinion though...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE THIS KIND OF FEELING........

Here I just tried to rate my life....
hahaha...it's so pity seeing the 0.8 for my lovelife...

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.9
Mind:	5.1
Body:	8
Spirit:	5.8
Friends/Family:	4.1
Love:	0.8
Finance:	6.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

This stooopiiiidd "maag" is killing me now....
holy crappppppp

I'm so sleepy....
so confuse...
feel so miserable....as always....hiks

Hey...I'm in the middle of preparing my cell tomorrow and it supposed to come from a book...the purpose driven life, which some of the "people" mentioning that I shud take some times to read it seriously...

I only have like another 24 hours to do it hehehe, and I haven't prepare anything yet.. after joining this cell for like err..let's see...dang...it's 6 years...included the 2 years MIA (Miss in action) things hehe, anyway, it'll become my first time again to bring the ...what ya...preach? I don't know what to name it tho' anyhoo, I'm a bit blank....yea yeah I shud read the book.....

I just found and still research on the chapter, which is chapter 7 and it's about everything has a reason... hahaha.... what a coincidence thing to my life....and just found a website saying..."Reason for everything....NOOOO IT FUCKING DOESN'T!!!" and after further read some of the article I somehow nod my head to the article...you know, child molester....I don't think God let em happen for reason...
at least, I don't feel it shud have reason to be happened..RIGHT?

well, I'm about 2 hours away to go to Inlingua to see the headmaster, which I don't even know what I'm going to do there...anyhow, Tony told me I shud come there and see the headmaster..I don't even know if I got into trouble since I caused so much chaos to my laoshi...aaaa loooooottttt

My GOD

I'm so confusing now.....I just don't know what should I do....
everything is just a big mess..
and things always jumbled up after like 2 WEEKS of ACQUINTANCE...why does He bother to let me know some people if it will be end on stupid things and matters???

CRAP!!!!!!